Spring Is Coming

I know that spring is a few weeks away, but I am feeling springy (I know that's not a word). I am in the mood to spring clean, wear flip flops, and open my windows and let the fresh breeze blow in. I know that it isn't time for that yet, but lately I have had a feeling of renewed hope. Spring is the sign of new life, and I feel a new life of hope stirring inside me. The days of winter have been very dark for me. With so much uncertainty, lack of information, and so much bad news, it has been a very hard, stressful, and depressing last few months. I am not sure what the future holds, or whether we will get this sweet baby or not, but I do know that God has called us to Vietnam and to this adoption. We may be wondering what is going on, and why this has to be so incredibly painful, but I know He is there. He has not left my side. Even when things got very hard and dark, He was there. I was telling a friend the other day that I thought, before we started this adoption, going through 20 hours of labor, and pushing out a 9 1/2 lb. baby without drugs, was going to be harder than this. It's not. This has definitely been harder. Who could have guessed?
Whatever this spring and summer hold, I know that God is working out His plan, and in the end we will get the baby girl He has planned for us. We may have to go through many more dark days, and hard decisions. We may not ever understand why this has been such a hard, stressful journey, but I don't need to know. It is comforting knowing that I am not alone, and the He is there carrying me through one of the toughest times of my life.
Thank you all for your prayers, you don't know how much they have meant to me and my family. I ask that you continue to pray for strength and wisdom for Harry and I, as we anticipate some very hard decisions in the near future. I could not have gotten through this winter without your prayers holding me up. There were days, that I thought that I couldn't go one more day, but I did. Thanks to you, and the Lord holding me in His strong and loving arms.
I can feel the warmth of spring and new hope, but maybe that's because I live in Virginia:-) For those of you buried under the burden of snow and despair, hope and spring are right around the corner.

Many are the plans in a man's heart,
but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

PROVERBS 19:21